Thursday, March 31, 2005
it's another day with the sunshine. skipped the 9-12am lessons today. so tired. no choice.. =x
yappa doodle doo!!~~~~~ >.< joan's meeting me for dinner tonite and.. she's treating me to pastamania. cos she once made this promise to me, think a year or 2 ago, a treat at pastamania after she gets her pay. lols. that biatch..
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
i really gotta move on. still learning how to let go. just cant bear to do it..
went to school today. irene and i were caught skipping lesson by that blardy sharmil. __
it's just another daily routine in school..
Monday, March 28, 2005
adapted from bulletin in friendster (really meaningful) :-
TO THE GUYS.
If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.
A girl won't cry easily, except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A girl won't cry easily, only when she loves you the most, she puts down her ego.
If a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly, cos she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If a girl cries because of you, please don't give her up, because of your decision, you might ruin her life.
When she cries right in front of you, when she cries because of you, look into her eyes, can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?
THINK.
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity, in front of you, and because of you?
She cries not because she is weak, not because she wants sympathy or pity, it's because crying silently is no longer possible. the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big for a burden to be kept inside.
Think about it.
If a girl cries her heart out to you, and because of you,
its time to look back on what you've done,
cos only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it.
Cos one day, it might be too late for regrets, it might be too late to say "im sorry".
guys. it really hurts.. and the hurt is beyond control. totally unbearable. learn to cherish, to appreciate a woman's wonderful love. ask yourself. do u deserve her precious heart?
jason. u noe it's horrible ya? remember how heartless u've been to me. and never ever repeat this grave mistake again. if u ever happen to find an ang moh char bor overseas or whoever she may be, treat her well. it might be me for u in the future again, or maybe someone else better, no one knows. it's sad but.. it's over. take care.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
i really wish i could be happy again. sadness and....those horrible feelings are filling up my life. i... ii... dunno what exactly to do, what exactly to say..
-collapsed-i only know how to cry. cry all those shits out. nobody can understand how hurt i feel.. nobody to talk me to sleep, nobody to wake me up in the morning, nobody to appreciate my stupid face, nobody to hug me to sleep, nobody to find 101 ways to make me smile anymore. i've never loved someone like how i love you before. it's like a big big tree trunk flew thru my heart..
hais. i just simply feel like dying. doing nothing, just sleep to death. i dont wanna think!!
but i truly believe, if we're meant to be, God will preserve both of us. if im faithful, God will honour me. i pray for courage to accept what has come my way, pray for endurance and tolerance. amen.
Friday, March 25, 2005
ROAR!!!!!! life sux big time!!!!!
just had a tiff with dearie.. hmmph. __ suck it bebeh!
sibei dulan.
fuck lor. becos of the
FUCKING MOE! listen up. it's the sucky
MINISTRY OF EDUCATION!dear say he going with me to moe to change muh subject code de. den his friends lah! go out go shit laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!~~~~ drop inside the hole okie! or go home sleep or wait and die. choose either one!!!!!!!!! fark.
roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
SO SIAN.. TODAY NOBODY GO CHIONGGG!! NO MONEYYYYYYYY~~~ $$$$
if i ever happen to meet Mr. Osama on the streets, i'll tag team with him and destroy moe! NO SCHOOLS, SAVE $$$ AND TIME...
Thursday, March 24, 2005
my clean-n-clear-virus-free-com is back after 1 day of
hospitalisation. so glad to hear my songs on my few-weeks-down-speaker again. lols. it's not the speaker actually. i tot it's the sound card, but it ended up being the changed settings instead. who the bugger changed the settings!
life's moving on for mua. =D ilovejason ..
Monday, March 21, 2005
something really abnormal happened recently.
u see i've never passed all my subjects
before, normally it's either i pass english or maths only or i never pass one. but surprisingly i managed to pass all of them for my N's, just that i didnt meet the qualifications for O's. den ended up in a private school.
got back my results for common tests today.. it shocked the hell outta my life. though it aint that well done, but im still relieved. c'mon, it's only the start of my O level life. xD
english - 25/5o -___-"
e. maths - 43/5o ^.^V
phy - 32/5o
bio - 28/5o
therefore :: combined science - 6o%
the rest havent got back yet. but sure fail. cos its the ultimate sucky chinese and combined humanities. lols.
yupp. dearie's outfield. sian1/2 lor.. to summarise, the army suck
BIG TIME! bleahx.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
we're back in action again. xD i love him. he loves me..yup. im in lurveee. starting all over again. all the heartaches and broken dreams are gone. ;p i'm dancing on da mooooooooooooooonnn...!!
Saturday, March 19, 2005
he's no longer mine.. everything's over.
he took my heart, lifted it high, and watched it fell into pieces - shattered.
dreams...hopes.... DASHED.
clubbing at sparks didn't really work for me. -sighs-
confusions; illusions
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
yup. ytd was fun again. kbox-ed with ah wei, xiong, irene, xiao wen, eugene, fan fan and edmund. after that went to china's place for dinner. his cooking is indeed
BRRRRILLLLIIIANTTT! minced meat omelette, cabbage, beef with vege, prawns, blahblahblah. and the soup! black chicken soup and a lil' wine in it. best of the best! after dinner the guys went swimming and the security guard came. cos someone complained that we made too made noise. went back and had a round or two of blackjack while the others played mahjong. was on the way to fetch a cab when i saw sebas and our new classmate - cindy, if im not wrong. hee.. he alighted and i boarded, together with edmund.
yup. took a bath and...zzzzzz.
some of them went to register for o's this afternoon. but i didnt. lols. irene noe mah. so ask her to teach me lor. anyway she'll be coming over for lunch tmr. yeaps. so that's about all. dearie booking out tmr nite. he took a day off.. awwwwww..how sweet.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
I'M LOVING MY BOY MORE AND MORE. thanks so much for letting me noe what's happening. iloveyou.ouhkay. nothing much to update lately. yesterday was fun heh. with sebas, zx and ah wei at bedok, watching PHS beat Monfort Sec with their billard skills. 4 tables, all Monforts died. muahaha. ive got a sense of satisfaction. but this ain't the finals. do well people! got my hair dyed or bleached i should say. i left it for only 1o mins and the colour came out..... gold on top, orange at the bottom. fucking gatsby. why did i bought gatsby? ask my good friends. the psycho-ing goes on and on. but the effect is good i tell u. just that the colour came out much too vibrant. and my hair is gonna rot soon with the effect of rebondings, perms and bleaching! split ends are showing themselves. ahaha. had some katong laksa for dinner and headed to the pasar malam den home.*note: the above entry's for last nite. this week's the school holidays. no one's home. dear's in camp. BLAH. how boring can life ever get..? when im in school, i wanna sleep. when im at home, i wanna go school. WHY AR? =(
Saturday, March 12, 2005
met up with dree last afternoon. went far east to trim her hair den headed to partyworld together with xiong, irene, and xiaowen to join the others. i got shocked when i walked into the room.. so many ppl. lols. dree came and join us awhile later.. sorry ar dree.. if u felt bored. somehow we swopped over to kbox at cineleisure cos partyworld cant extend time le.
stupid. troy somehow got drunk and caused so much fucking trouble. he kicked irene on her face lor!!! wtf. few mouthfuls of beer and it got him drunk. ["-___-] ..dearie was waiting for me already, so i left first. he bought movie tickets with his friend and his friend's girlfriend. after that mama called me and kpkb so i go home lor. den last nite waste money on the tickets le. =(
somehow i think that u've changed, changed so much. unlike the past, u'd talk to me in a better way.. now i know how i feel. this feeling came back to me again after a long break. sometimes i hate u so much. hais.
-heartbroken-
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
had fun yesterday with muh friends. irene, xiong, xiao wen and i decided to go and sing our hearts out at kbox paradiz centre. bumped into robin and the others there. so we had two rooms. all of us were hopping room to room. lols. we ordered around 8 jugs of tiger but only me, ah wei, china and malaysia drank. others din drink much ya. and i got a hangover. must admit that im not a good drinker. hahas. not drunk. just a lil' dizzy that's all. wakakaka. after our party session went to amk for supper. heh. at mee sua and i vomited all out when i got home. headaches resulted me to skip school today including my geog test.
yupp. gonna take a bath. the weather's killing mua.
ciaos.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
woke up late and skipped school again. but i'll be going to bukit merah for science practical lesson later on. ya.
wendy came over to muh house.. lucky got some entertainment. wahahaha =x .. argh. LIFE IS BORING. sometimes ppl like me should get a life and do something more productive instead of slacking everyday. i just sit and rot whenever im free and this results in... getting fatter and fatter everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AUDREY ONG...GET UR BUTT UP AND EXERCISE!
ANYONE WANTS TO GO TO THE GYM GYM GYM?????
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
didn't update for the past few weeks because muh infected-wtih-virus com is mad.
yawn~ just woke up not long ago. did not sleep very well cos i accidentally banged my head on the wall while sleeping. maybe becos i rolled too much. haha.. skipped 3 tutorials before lunch and im gonna head for school soon. yup. life's in school has been so much better without *let's not mention names*. lols. this is a serious matter. hahahaha...
dear and i have lessen our quarrels which is something good..er. bad maybe. wakakaka. ayts. gonna meet the girlies for lunch den to school!
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